paradoxum

I've never had a "guest blogger" on my blog, but my sister-in-law wrote a beautiful post about her youngest daughters birthday and I had to post it. So, thanks Kim!

Today is my "baby's" 8th birthday! So hard to believe and so fast does the time fly by! As I stood in the shower this morning, I wondered, "does everyone have headless barbies, naked baby dolls, and Little Ponies in there shower?" It wasn't always this way. Not too long ago batman figures, zoo animals, and Woody and Buzz lightyear were in my shower. That was my life with little boys, now they are practically men and my little girls are the ones leaving their toys in the shower.

Where did the time go? How do I have a son in college and when did my little baby "egg" grow so big? There are days when I think, "ok, I've got this. I'm ok, he's ok, it's all good". Then I pull into a parking space at Target and look across the way at a mom getting out with her 2 little boys. They are close in age, but opposite in appearance. A little tow head and a brunette, I can relate. I laugh as I watch them compete for holding her hand, arguing one second and dancing a silly jig the next, laughing and poking each other. My laughter quickly turns to tears and I am caught unaware. "What just happened? I thought I was ok!" The truth is, I am. I am ok. Things change, Love doesn't. Circumstances change, but "love remains the same". 

MY "baby" only asked for one thing for her birthday, a water baby. It's a baby doll that when filled with warm water feels like a real baby. I wonder if that makes her feel like a "real" mom? I hope not AND I hope so. It's quite a feeling! Love, joy, hope, peace, pain, dispair, fear, love... always love. So, I guess there will be a new baby doll in my shower, but I'll try to make room. Who needs shampoo anyway?...